| Welcome to 2009 |
[Jan. 9th, 2009|08:52 am] |
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Howdy Hi Everybody,
2009 is going swimmingly so far.
I've lost 2kgs with my healthier lifestyle - yaaaaaaaaaaaaay
(I sense a kermit the frog theme to my mood today *why are there so many songs about rainbows and whats on the other siiiiiiiiiide* oh dear!)
In good news, I have been doing fitness orientated schtuffs and eating better.
I also booked in for my tattoo/s (not telling yet) for 30th Jan at Freestyle in Civic - I'm soooooooo excited that I feel another yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay coming on!!!
I also have my rehab back, thanks Veteran's Affairs! Which pencil pusher decided that they knew more than a Doctor (THE Doctor, I wish) and decided that someone that's had cancer, a stroke, and is on dialysis didn't need her rehab anymore - eeeeeeeediots!
Yesterday was my first day back and I will just say OOOOOWWWWWCCCCCHHHH!
It will take a few weeks to find my groove again but I will get there.
I've also started playing a modified version of golf with my Mum on Mondays :)
Last Monday was my first time out in the paddocks chasing a little white ball all over the place, but surprisingly (to me anyway) I did good :)
I got my modified version of a swing going (with my dodgy back, it was a struggle at first) and even managed to get height and distance with my driver - w00t!
Now to start improving.
Oh, I would have made the most awesomest putt ever but Mum hadn't made it to the flag to take it out, and then counted the extra shot to get it in *pouts* so that made a 9 on a par 5 - not bad for a golf virgin ;)
Tonight, I'm actually going out.
Friend Terri is celebrating her last day of dealing with *people* before moving up in the world - you go girl, I'm really happy for you :D :D :D
and so we are off to Kremlin. Now I haven't been there before, so it's a bit new and exciting, and it's also happy hour between 6 and 8pm.
Question: Why is Happy Hour not Happy Hours if it's longer than a singular hour?
*ponders*
This year, our vehicular project is Stinky - the modified turbo Lynx.
He currently sits in the garage with no nose, and his back end stripped out.
As long as we keep paying the registration, he has 3 years to get back on his game because that's when the lease on Gort runs out.
My car needs some lovin' too. There are Stone Chips!!!
And my amps have decided that they have blown a fuse and now I have no music in the car :(
Easily fixed when we (ie: Aaron) finds some time.
I'm sure there is more to tell, but I will leave my update there for the moment, time to write some emails :)
Cheers y'all |
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| The end of the year of the suck |
[Dec. 28th, 2008|09:22 am] |
As I haven't updated regularly, it's because 2008 has blown goat (sorry Frank).
My Godmother, Joy, passed away in November, and Aleks aka Bear lost his mother last week. There have been other times in the year but these last few months have hurt the most.
I'll try and do better on here in 2009 because it's going to be a GREAT year.
I have resolutions and everything ;)
Anyway, apologies to those that have felt ignored by me this year, I promise it will change :)
And for those interested, I have a facebook so comment with your fb name and I'll add you ;)
Luv,
Kitty |
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| Weekendage |
[Nov. 29th, 2008|09:12 am] |
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It's been a tough time of things lately so I am glad that today I am heading over for catchups with [_Good_Friend_Descriptive_] Nemo.
(Can you tell I've been reading his FB? LOL)
Nemo gives the best hugs in the world.
He is always there when you need him.
If you ask for help, he will try to give it as best he can.
He has a good heart and a whirly colourful bouncy soul :)
As he has often been described by others:
"Strange, but in a good way"
Thankyou for the messages of support, I do appreciate it.
And thankyou for the emails too. |
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| RIP Joy - my beloved Godmother |
[Nov. 19th, 2008|12:31 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | In my head | ] |
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| |  sad | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Rage in my heart, sorrow in my heart, fear and helplessness in my head | ] |
I cannot fathom the words to begin to express my grief.
My throat closes up just thinking about it.
The pain rips at my heart
I know I will not sleep tonight
Tonight will be spent remembering her, and packing for my flight to Adelaide.
Joy was my Godmother, but her whole family welcomed me into their arms - something my own family never did. I remember being a little girl and wishing that Joy was my mother because she was always so happy to see me and gave me the biggest and besterest hugs - the same as the ones she gave me last year when I saw her last.
I spoke with her on email quite regularly, and told her of my plans to visit her in Adelaide in April.
I wish I could have one more of her hugs.
She would always show me how to look at things from a different perspective.
I used to blame myself that my real mother hated me, but she showed me that it simply wasn't the case. My real mother did love me but didn't know (doesn't know) how to express it.
She was so pleased to hear my dialysis was going well, and we shared a bond that went deeper than being a Godmother/GodDaughter relationship, we shared the experience of the battle for your life. We shared the same disease, we fought the same fight.
I won my battle, but it is with the heaviest of hearts and eyes full of tears, that she did not.
Now it gets hard
I stop for another cry only to wonder how do I go on from here?
First my father, and now Joy, I just can't do this.
We are as broke as broke can be, but I will be there!
Nothing will stop me, nothing will stand in my way.
I couldn't book any accomodation so I will find something but the main thing is to get to Adelaide and be there for Peter and Matt.
Do I write my own eulogy for Joy?
Where do I start?
So much to say, and yet, how can mere words convey a persons whole life?
She was beautiful from all sides and this wrenching of her from our lives is going to leave a void that threatens to overwhelm me, to suck me inside it and I'll never see the light again.
I don't want her to go.
Please don't take her from me, Please?
I have to go, the screen is hard to see and I can't breathe through all the hurt.
Me. |
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| I forgot how much I like these quizzes, they're funny :) |
[Sep. 11th, 2008|08:57 am] |
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| You Are 32% Goth |  Goth? No. Definitely not. You hardly even wear black clothing.
And to be honest, dark, brooding goth types freak you out a little.
To the extent that you have any goth interests, it's only because some goth stuff has become mainstream.
There's no chance anyone's going to find you in a graveyard after dark, that's for sure! |
*whew*
Not that I was worried at all ;)
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| It's been how long........? |
[Aug. 7th, 2008|10:59 am] |
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Goodness me, it has been a while, sorry folks.
I've been traipsing about the countryside and got home last night.
A month away in tropical Queensland is a tough job but someone's gotta do it right?
Now looking at houses again as we have to move - I hate moving!!
We have bengal kittens coming out of the wazoo, plenty still left for sale if anyone wants one.
They're like little lounge leopards.
If you want to see some pictures, look here:
http://www.neko-sama.com/galleries/Molly
http://www.neko-sama.com/galleries/Holly
These two girls are already 6 months old, so going cheap cheap!
http://www.neko-sama.com/galleries/Thorn
http://www.neko-sama.com/galleries/JetLi
http://www.neko-sama.com/galleries/Prickles
http://www.neko-sama.com/galleries/QT
And one other (their gallery won't work) available $800
And finally a litter born on Anzac Day has 3 or 4 left, depending on whether or not the folks that looked at them last weekend follow through with their purchase.
I can send pictures if anyone wants to see them
What else has been happening?
Work continues on the cars, I bought a motorbike - a CB900F Honda Hornet - I LOVE IT!
Health is still sucky but I won't bore anyone with that.
Aaron got a promotion and is now working at a GREAT job down southside, so we'll be moving down that way.
I'm sure there's more I've forgotten, but I will 'try' to update more often - thanks for those reminders Heidi :)
Hope everyone else is doing well.
Stay warm and smiling,
me |
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| The pain of loss |
[Sep. 17th, 2007|11:31 pm] |
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I can't sleep, so I will sit here and write in the hopes of making sense of it all, and hope that my heart will not scream and break and hurt and all of that........
Tonight, at approximately 8.30pm, I received a phone call from my godfather.
Dennis lives in Adelaide and besides being my godfather, he is my birth father's closest friend of some 40 plus years.
I hear from him on occasion and usually it is a pleasure to speak to him.
Tonight was not the case.
Tonight he called me to tell me that my father, my birth father, died.
I can't explain the desolation, the pain, the anger, the grief - there aren't words to adequately describe how I felt when I heard Dennis' words tonight.
The tears come and go, for a while I am numb and then I am overwhelmed, I am drowning in pain and anguish.
He's gone.
We had an unusual relationship. Time would pass between conversations, months even years way back when, but it didn't matter.
Whenever we needed to, we picked up a phone and we would be there for each other.
There was never any clingy obligation, we would just pick up the conversation where we left off.
Tomorrow I fly to Adelaide.
Tomorrow I go to make arrangements for his funeral.
This was never meant to happen this way, I was the one that was ill, I was the one that was supposed to go first.
Bob was my father.
He was strong, he was capable, he was controlling, he was confusing, he was always trying to be more than he was.
He was certainly no angel and he would berate me for my tears now if he could.
Last time I saw him was last year, to introduce him to his future son in law. Over 12 months ago.
It doesn't seem that long ago, last week maybe.
There is a gaping hole in me, I feel as if I"ve been punched in the stomach, that the pain will drown me.
I feel his loss so much that I fear I will break.
How does anyone cope with this kind of loss?
How can anyone exist with this feeling inside?
Tears run down my face
My head pounds with agony
My heart is broken
I sit and type words but it doesn't begin to describe the void inside.
I want to scream, I want to sob, I want him to come back so I can tell him I love him dearly and I will promise to spend more time with him.
It just doesn't stop, the hurt that crushes me.
I had thought that getting some of it out of my system would help, it has not.
I will miss you Bob, you will always live in my heart.
RIP |
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| nudge nudge nudgeroonies |
[Aug. 31st, 2007|11:27 am] |
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Stuck
on
Dial
Up
It's
So
Frustrating........
Oh, I've been published in a magazine!
I'm very excited about that :)
We moved house, we want to build a home in Bungendore and we might be buying a new car.
I can't drive a manual very well anymore, but will be keeping my little car. I managed to crack one of the 18" wheels so the stock 16" wheels have been put back on - it doesn't look right! Been looking at getting a CX-7 - a bigger car to haul us back and forth to Bungendore in the future.
Our Bengal Queen has already gone on heat once, and we are looking at a boyfriend for her on Sunday - fingers crossed. Hopefully it means we will have more Bengal cubs before Xmas.
It's time to replace our mobile phones again, been thinking of the w880i - does anyone have one of these phones? I also want to look at the phones that do everything - camera, mp3 player, pda, gps etc. Has anyone got any experience with one of these type of phones?
We're heading off to the central coast for a wedding at the end of September - it's also our first wedding anniversary!!
November see's us heading south for a big meet and we're staying home for Xmas.
A big party at Xmas time see's friends travelling from QLD/NSW/VIC for the shindig - it's going to be awesome!
If you want to join the festivities just let me know :)
I think that's about it for the moment.
Thanks for the nudge, it generally works LOL.
Cheers |
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| Weekendage |
[Jul. 16th, 2007|02:25 pm] |
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| |  busy | ] |
Time has flown, and once again I have neglected my LJ.
Thanks to the nudgers reminding me to come back and post :)
A and I went to see the Transformers movie, it was spectacular. I loved it very much. I used to watch the cartoon all the time so it was a treat to see it on the big screen, and I wasn't disappointed too much with the storyline. It'll be interesting to see Tx2 and see how they keep it going and if it's similar to the cartoon series.
I don't remember the last time I went to the movies and I'm hoping that we might go a bit more often.
We also have one of those entertainment books with vouchers and discounts, we used one voucher at Aubergine in Griffith, OMG it was truly spectacular but also expensive. I had an entertainment book the year I met A, and it was used a lot, so I'm hoping this year will be full of new experiences and some fun times.
We've moved house, again, but unfortunately it isn't into our own home as we had hoped.
We paid for a pest inspection, building inspection and engaged solicitors to act on our behalf
THEN
on the day we were giving the deposit, they took it off the market and then sold it to someone else the next day!!
Not Happy Jan!
We had to move anyway though because our previous rental property was to be put on the market for sale.
So we have moved into a HUGE 5brm house.
We have room to move and we're making an area off the laundry for the cats to play outside.
I've been pondering renting a room, we have Jason sharing with us and he's really great, but we really need to cut back spending and continue to work on saving for our home. We have just over $16K in the bank but I wish it was more.
We've basically decided that we'll build our own home, and get it right the first time!
The weekend saw us spending the money I've just said we want to save, and catching up with friends that we haven't seen for a LONG LONG time.
Many long and overdue hugs for![[info]](http://stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) earthnative and ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92.1) vegetus
Spending all too brief a time with you on Sunday (nearly Saturday lol) reminded me that I have withdrawn from life, the universe and everything.
Seeing you made me want to spend more time with you and I hope I can be there for you more often.
I've had a difficult year so far, but it isn't without it's ups as well.
Although my health continues to decline, I have had some wonderful times as well.
I got to snorkel the Great Barrier Reef, I just loved it. Getting away to the Whitsunday's was fantastic. I think it helped to remind me that life isn't always bad, that there is beauty out there. The crux of it is that I'm afraid to get out there and participate in life anymore.
Seeing earthnative and vegetus, and listening to plans and life experiences, made me envious but also very VERY happy for living your dreams and doing what I cannot.
It is because of these two people, and their wonderful family of friends, that I want to try to improve my life.
This is my start, because I cannot expect people to want to be around me if I don't reach out.
I have a lot I want to achieve before the end.
Feeling like I am in a downward spiral, not able to see the light, not able to get out of it, I know it's a part of depression and it's a result of my condition/s doesn't mean I shouldn't try. Lately, I haven't tried, I haven't wanted to try, I haven't wanted to do much of anything.
So, here's hoping that spending a brief period of time around two people that I love and respect will be enough to push me to try.
To try and fail is better than not trying at all right?
Time to liven up this post now.
Purchases were made on the weekend, and I have a new vaccuum cleaner - my second Dyson.
Although it might seem silly to get excited about a vaccuum cleaner, I did anyway :D
http://www.dyson.com.au/range/feature_frame.asp?model=DC20-STOW-TURBINE
This is the one we got. I know it's a bit more expensive than your regular vaccuum cleaners, but I believe it's worth it.
We also bought a steam mop because we have a lot of tiled area's, and a dishwasher.
Our new rental property is a brand new house but it had no dishwasher. I was mildly surprised by it but then the neighbours (who rent from the same folks as we do) didn't even get the automatic garage door opener!
Happily we got an excellent price on the dishwasher we wanted and then got it on 4 years interest free - thanks David Jones ;)
I also purchased a new chair. It's pretty spiffy, black, has a high back so I can rest my head on it, it tilts and it means I can put my homedics shiatsu cushion on it and get massages. It really does help so I'm happy with that.
I've been browsing friends and friends of friends, amazed that there are still people out there that I know that I haven't spoken to in years and years. I haven't just been hibernating, I've become somewhat of a hermit. I'm still happy to stay here at home but it would be nice to have someone to talk to once in a while.
Anyway, enough blathering from me.
Thanks again to my nudgers, it's nice to be missed
*hugs* |
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| Moo-meage! |
[Apr. 17th, 2007|12:22 am] |
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You're on my friends list, I want to know you. I want to know 32 things about you. I don't care if we never talk never liked each other, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine. You're on my list, so want to know you better!
1. Can you cook?
2. What was your dream growing up?
3. What talent do you wish you had?
4. Favorite place?
5. Favorite vegetable?
6. What was the last book you read?
7. What zodiac sign are you?
8. Any tattoos and/or piercings?
9. Worst habit?
10. Do we know each other outside of lj?
11. What is your favorite sport?
12. Negative or optimistic attitude?
13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15. Tell me one weird fact about you:
16. Do you have any pets?
17. Do you know how to do the macarena?
18. What time is it where you are now?
19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22. What color eyes do you have?
23. Ever been arrested?
24. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
25. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?
26. What's your favorite bar to hang at?
27. Do you believe in ghosts?
28. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
29. Do you swear a lot?
30. Biggest pet peeve?
31. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
32. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you? |
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